Thursday, August 18, 2011

Oh My God!

Is it normal to drive to school listening to your iPod and crying your eyes out?  Because that is what I did this morning.

I was listening to this song, a song I've listened to tons of times before, but this morning it really got to me.  I felt that feeling again, that feeling of happiness that I haven't felt in half a year, that feeling that I am in the right place at the right time and that everything will work out and be ok.  I talked about this feeling before when I was pregnant and since January I haven't felt it - until this morning.

I lost it, I listened to the song over and over again and felt just like she was feeling.  By the time it gets to the last "oh my god" and she screams it - that was me!  OH MY GOD!  Did this really all happen?  Has our life really been like this?  Was there a time where I didn't want to get out of bed, or didn't care if I even woke up in the morning?  OH MY GOD!  Have we really gone through this together?  Are we done?  Is it over?  OH MY GOD!  Have we been living in the dark all this time, under a cloud?  It seems almost funny.  OH MY GOD!  DID WE REALLY COME BACK FROM THIS?! 

So many emotions, so many feelings.  It was overwhelming and at that moment I realized - it WAS over and THIS, THIS is the other side.  THIS is what I've been pretending to feel this whole time to everyone around me, THIS is the feeling I thought I'd never get back.  Well, it's here again and I'm so excited.  We made it and it's unbelievable what we've been through - OH MY GOD!!!

"Oh My God" Ida Maria

Find a cure
find a cure for my life
Oh my God
oh you think I’m in control
Oh my God
oh you think it’s all for fun
Pin a smile
Pin a smile on my face
Put a price
put a price on my soul
Oh my God
oh you think I’m in control
Oh my God
oh you think it’s all for fun
Oh my God
Build a wall
Build a fortress around my heart
OH MY GOD!

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